/kəh-rin'/, 22. A lonesome hobo and a freeloader.

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I can make time anytime, I can fix things. All I need is just a little push, a little please.

Buddy Holly. Rochester, New York. 1958. Allen caught Holly aboard the band bus.  The other two passengers were probably members of a package show with whom Holly was touring.  It was on such a tour, in 1959, that Holly was killed when he chose to fly rather than ride in the bus. © Lewis Allen
“Death was one thing we didn’t discuss that weekend. But it was around us like a thick fog.  “In a room next to the control room, just before we left the studio, John looked at me. I looked at him. His eyes had an intensity of a guy about to tell me something important.  ”Yes?” I asked. And I will never forget how with a deep, soft voice, as if to carve his words on my mind, he said the most beautiful things to me. “Oh,” I said after a while, and looked away, feeling a bit embarrassed.  “In my mind, hearing something like that from your man when you were way over 40… well… I was a very lucky woman, I thought.  Even now, I see his piercing eyes in my mind. I don’t know why he decided, at that very moment, to say all that as if he wanted me to remember it forever. “Did it matter that the whole world hated you if your guy loved you that much? Who cares if you had to live in hell with him?  Some couples might be lucky to live in heaven. John and my heaven was in Hell. And we loved it. We would not have wanted it in any other way.  - Yoko Ono, John’s Last Days: A Remembrance 
“I’m often afraid, but I’m not afraid to be afraid, otherwise it’s all scary.But it’s more painful to try not to be yourself. People spend a lot of time trying to be somebody else, and I think it leads to terrible diseases.  “I think it has something to do - I don’t know, I’m no expert - with constantly living or getting trapped in an image or an illusion of themselves, suppressing some part of themselves, whether it’s the feminine side or the fearful side.”  - John Lennon, The Rolling Stone 1980. 
I love the way he looked toward the end: “Keep your chin up. Don’t let anybody see that they got you!” I always nodded when he said that. But when he was alone, I caught him pondering with a faraway look of a young / old soldier who remembered it all.  One day, he even said, “Look if ever I die, make sure to…” and he gave me precise instructions on what I had to do the Beatles’ outtakes. “Make sure you do that.” I thought it was remarkable that he was still concerned about his old takes.  One night he was sobbing.  ”Don’t leave me alone.  Don’t die on me.”  ”But John, I’m older than you, so it’s natural that I go first.”  ”No, you can’t.  You just can’t.” - Yoko Ono, John’s Last Days: A Remembrance  
George Harrison. English musician. singer-songwriter. actor. record and film producer. lead guitarist of The Beatles.  And a father.  RIP, George. 
Emotionlessly she kissed me in the vineyard and walked off down the row. We turned at a dozen paces, for love is a duel, and looked at each other for the last time.

- On the Road by Jack Kerouac

Photo taken from the Penguin Red Classic edition of Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov, published 2006 (copyright 1955). I love this novel very much.